Monday, August 30, 2010
你说你明白
你明白什么 ?
你还是不明 ...
如果你明的话 ...
为什么每一次都要我说出来 , 你才会做 ?
如果 ,
我今天需要你陪 ,
你会乖乖待在家陪我吗 ?
你很想出 .
okay 出吧 .
因为我很不喜欢当每个人去玩去倒数 ,
而我就一个人在家 .
偏偏我就是一个人 , 独生女 .
我会觉得很寂莫 .
我只是想我爱的人留在身边陪我 .
可是
当你说你今晚会去倒数时
眼泪就不停的流了
就是不能停
因为我很害怕孤单 ...
你说你懂
你根本不懂
我post了好多wall post给你
I miss you .
Goodmorning bii
mr.dolphin
goodnight .
你有多少封是回复的?
你朋友就只post一个oii
你宁愿回他都不回我
这是什么? 你懂么 ?
别用少上网做借口 .
我们的第七个月
我不会在期盼什么了
也不会想要怎样庆祝了
一个月比一个月的少了惊喜
惊喜其实不用钱也可以做到
一个很简单的惊喜也可以很开心
12点了
国庆日
你不是我要一起倒数的对像 .
烟花放着
我做的想的 , 都不是想要和你一起去看烟花
我明天好想驾车去你学校找你
但是取消了这个念头
因为不见面 , 可能你会珍惜我比较多 .
你要抽烟
抽个够吧
我从此以后
都已经不在乎你抽不抽烟了
你懂 , 你明白的时候 ,
我不出声
你也会戒的 .
以前你会 : bii , we together 100days ady !! weeee
你很开心 , 你的傻样
我最喜欢
但
现在
我只会说 : oh , 原来207天了哦 , 他好像不懂哦 ...
总之
很多事都变了
不是我想多
是你没注臆到
或
你不晓得怎样变
你说你懂
但其实你不懂
我觉得
你不会去看这片文章吧
不管你有没有看见
不管我告诉你多少次
你都不会明白我
Saturday, May 8, 2010
I'm crying infront of the laptop right now , Imma Ham Bao , CRY is the way to let me let off something else , when I am not allow to let off by expressing out from my temper .. Because i'm alone , alone in the room , no one to talk to .
Call friends to talk ? I want to , but there are always friends call me first , i'm not the one who initiative to call someone ..
Promised him yesterday morning , I won't think much , trust him in his every single word or action .. Yea , and now , I really try my very best to trust him , I know he won't be a liar . My mind will still convince me that nothing is impossible , what he is doing outside u don't know ... I will trust yet still need abit of awareness to keep myself from hurts .
Every time when I need to suffer like worry , afraid of , lies of boyfriend
I will have a feeling comes to my mind , SINGLE really no need to suffer these things , relax enough . But ... I won't be so stubborn again to think it some more . Hmm .. because , suffer can develop our relationship , of cause not over limit suffer . If he really loves me , he won't so easy to let me go when meets obstacles .
I able to console my jimui around me about their love problems , but I fail to convince back myself , fail to do it . So I understand why there are some of them who still so stubborn even I have console them , because it is hard to do it ...
He sms me yesterday night , He wrote : I promise I'll give up my night life , stay at home at night everyday , I just don't want my laopo unhappy .. I rather give up than leaving my laopo unhappy always .
I cried when I saw the sms . But I don't know whether is it true , If i really agree and accept your promise , wants you to hold ur promise ; NO NIGHT LIFE ANYMORE
Do you really can do it as what u promise ? Or the promise u made may be just valid for a particular period ?
But at the end , I still let him continue with his night life , because I don't want to stop what he like to do .
I just want him to know what he is doing , what he is talking about when I'm not around . I don't want any lies between us . I very afraid that he will fall in love with another girl one day , as I said , I know he loves me much now , but nothing is impossible , who knows what will happen in the future ?
Whenever he is going out at night , I can't really sleep well on the whole night . Last time I won't wait him , but now wait him back home routinely is a MUST in my life , getting more care of him . These two days continuously , I sleep around 1am , but wake up at 4am ... Nothing to wake me up , automatically wake up , just because he is not in the home yet .
Every one is hovering around my ears , told me that He is a good guy , He really love me much .
I know , I witness it . But I still don't know why , I'll still think of possibilities of negative things will happen , maybe just to protect myself or as a preparation when it really happens ? Just like last time of my unawareness , I have no preparation at all , so i got hurt seriously .
Calvin ;
to conclude ,
I Love You ; I changed , to be loyal to boyfriend . Seriously put our relationship to priority . I hope you are the 7th , and the last .
I Trust You ; Anything must tell me honestly . When you have problems , treat me as your brother but not girlfriend , keng sam xi ; When I have problems , I will treat you as my jimui but not boyfriend , keng sam xi . This is what I want . I know I did wrong also , I didn't honest before . Let's start now together , always honest .
And one last thing
sorry for all
sorry for my bad tempered .
Call friends to talk ? I want to , but there are always friends call me first , i'm not the one who initiative to call someone ..
Promised him yesterday morning , I won't think much , trust him in his every single word or action .. Yea , and now , I really try my very best to trust him , I know he won't be a liar . My mind will still convince me that nothing is impossible , what he is doing outside u don't know ... I will trust yet still need abit of awareness to keep myself from hurts .
Every time when I need to suffer like worry , afraid of , lies of boyfriend
I will have a feeling comes to my mind , SINGLE really no need to suffer these things , relax enough . But ... I won't be so stubborn again to think it some more . Hmm .. because , suffer can develop our relationship , of cause not over limit suffer . If he really loves me , he won't so easy to let me go when meets obstacles .
I able to console my jimui around me about their love problems , but I fail to convince back myself , fail to do it . So I understand why there are some of them who still so stubborn even I have console them , because it is hard to do it ...
He sms me yesterday night , He wrote : I promise I'll give up my night life , stay at home at night everyday , I just don't want my laopo unhappy .. I rather give up than leaving my laopo unhappy always .
I cried when I saw the sms . But I don't know whether is it true , If i really agree and accept your promise , wants you to hold ur promise ; NO NIGHT LIFE ANYMORE
Do you really can do it as what u promise ? Or the promise u made may be just valid for a particular period ?
But at the end , I still let him continue with his night life , because I don't want to stop what he like to do .
I just want him to know what he is doing , what he is talking about when I'm not around . I don't want any lies between us . I very afraid that he will fall in love with another girl one day , as I said , I know he loves me much now , but nothing is impossible , who knows what will happen in the future ?
Whenever he is going out at night , I can't really sleep well on the whole night . Last time I won't wait him , but now wait him back home routinely is a MUST in my life , getting more care of him . These two days continuously , I sleep around 1am , but wake up at 4am ... Nothing to wake me up , automatically wake up , just because he is not in the home yet .
Every one is hovering around my ears , told me that He is a good guy , He really love me much .
I know , I witness it . But I still don't know why , I'll still think of possibilities of negative things will happen , maybe just to protect myself or as a preparation when it really happens ? Just like last time of my unawareness , I have no preparation at all , so i got hurt seriously .
Calvin ;
to conclude ,
I Love You ; I changed , to be loyal to boyfriend . Seriously put our relationship to priority . I hope you are the 7th , and the last .
I Trust You ; Anything must tell me honestly . When you have problems , treat me as your brother but not girlfriend , keng sam xi ; When I have problems , I will treat you as my jimui but not boyfriend , keng sam xi . This is what I want . I know I did wrong also , I didn't honest before . Let's start now together , always honest .
And one last thing
sorry for all
sorry for my bad tempered .
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
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